Hi. Im back after not posting for so many years. Its currently 2023, and its been 3 years since im not posting i guess? ;)
Im getting a computer and started blogging back since the last time i had a computer, which is i borrow from my sister just to update my blog back in 2020 XD. But now, fuck all. I will giving half my soul just to update blog, since its very late 3 years for me for not posting any, but now with my new computer named 'i dont give her a name yet, later we decide', i will forever posting!
I think people not posting on blog anymore since theres a lot of new apps named Tiktok, Instagram etc, but blog will be my forever comfort thing to look at. It will cherish my teenage vibes, and my classic blogging era since 2009. I love blog forever!
Blogging can be my therapy when im down, since now im 26 and a stressfull adult. ADULTING IS REALLY SUCKS!
Let me tell you what am i in 2023.
Surely, my name is Que (spelled as Q, original form of Q letter, taken from B.A.L.Q.I.S name), like i just dont want people to call me by my real name, because i hate people.
Im 26. Such a sucks age of number. Theres 4 years to reach fucking 30. I HATE IT!
Im working as General Worker/Graphic Designer at Private Company, now its been 5 Months since March 2023. In February, I worked as Assistant Supervisor at Ice Cream cafe which is already closed now because of unordinary things happened there. Lets not talk about that, really dont.
Family? I still being with my family, and yes some small fight may occured about small things for sure. Mostly between me and my mother.
Friends? Some of my friends already get married and have babies. Some of them already got work that get good pays. And non of them being my Best Friends. Just CLOSED FRIENDS maybe.
Relationship? Yes, im still with my previous boyfriend as state here in blog for past few years. Abdul Mutalib. For sure, he's already improved life, have motorcycle that brings me everywhere even his Salary getting high. Im happy for him. Just that im the problem, always causing fights and sometimes i want to give up.
Just that few things i want to share here. Have to informed that Im totally a messed and i hate myself. I gained weight, getting fat, lazy, loves to eat dessert after ordinary meal, dont have good savings (just depends on the EPF), dont treat peoples right etc. I think i dont deserve to live anymore since nothing cherish me in this big world.
Um, i think im too negative to write maybe? See you next update :)
